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Sunday, November 21, 2010

10 THINGS I WOULDN'T CHANGE ABOUT MA. ENGRACE LAPITAN

you'll probably burst and say "AAAhh" when you read the title..:P

TOP 10 THINGS I WOULDN'T WANT TO CHANGE
1. Her Child-like laughter
2. Her irresistible "Maldita" attitude
3. Her rare sweet "Lambings"
4. Her lovely eyes
5. Her Perfect Smile (yes you have perfect teeth and I don't)
6. Her Silent Glances
7. Her Understanding
8. Her Simplicity
9. Her Passion
10. Her Love

See something strange?hehhehe..:P..PHILO SE

Saturday, October 9, 2010

DISPAIR,FAITH,LOVE

Letting go, something that isn't really easy to do....officially its been more than 3 years since the girl that made my dreams come true and shattered it. Yes she was the girl of my dreams I didn't even thought a guy like me could have a girl like her...Things happened because of my actions and her actions, we both were young. I'm saying in advance that I don't have a grudge against her. My life was miserable when she finally left me, I guess it's part of life that i should experience....I am really thankful that she came into my life. I've learnt a lot and I saw myself of who I was..I was betrayed yes or thats what I felt..I took a hard fall because I loved her to the deepest of my heart....some would point out a very common thing to blame "PHYSICAL DISTANCE". Its what they blame for what happens in long distance relationships, but I beg to differ. Physical distance can teach you some fundamentals of true love.One of it is Faith. Yes Faith,without faith your are not truly loving a person...It is very important in any relationship you might have. Trusting that other person is at first quite hard, really..because you don't know yet how things will go..BUT WHY WORRY THAT MUCH?! Just have FAITH and everything will fall into place(of course you use common-sense at times..hehhe). This was my dire mistake back then I didn't have much faith(and common sense)..I wasn't really trusting her..and the result...viola! everything crumbled...There are things in this world that even the most intelligent man cannot comprehend...Do you ever wonder why all the things that cannot be explained is equated to God?..because His presence in theses powerful emotions are great. By now you may be confused of which faith I am talking about...well actually its both the FAITH that we give to Him and the faith you give your partner..Its the same even if protest...you know why its the same? Because when you have true faith in Him you also have faith in your partner...Falling down and being in the state of DISPAIR will likely taint your FAITH in HIM and in other people..It's natural to experience that...but it doesn't mean you have to dwell in that place for the rest of your life. It is meant to teach you something...Something that will make you love more deeply than ever before. We all walk our own paths. so we have a choice...that choice is a gift from God. We must pick the choice that will lead us to our happiness. God wants us to make a choice and stand up for ourselves, because we are part of Him...Love is a mysterious thing. It hurts you, creates a hole in your heart when we fall...but I realized that hole was meant to be made for us to be ready for the one truly for us...We love truly when we come through the all the flavors of emotion...but in the end you realize that this beautiful mess is what they call LOVE..
and what I'm feeling at this very moment is Love...It's all because of you my beloved Acia..Ma. Engrace Escosura Lapitan..Thank you for sharing this light to me...and we will continue to burn this light till the last days of our lives I LOVE YOU...

if you read through this whole post, I thank you, and LOVE with all your heart.


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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

From Coffee to Tea addiction



For a few years i was really ADDICTED to Coffee, yes the typical American addiction. COFFEE ..I tried different flavors of coffee may it be called ice blended or hot, but I prefer it to be hot. I've got a lot of realizations from coffee. Coffee is a symbol of a good conversation(well to some it may be an implication of sex..hahha) ..I wrote a lot of poems and journals while taking a sip off my Cafe Latte...Inspires me and helps me relax and enjoy solitude in all it's beauty. I've observed people who are at the coffee shops. The coffee shops themselves tell something about their customers. Starbucks in my opinion is where the general public get a cup of their coffee especially the ones who use that coffee shop to show off that they CAN afford to buy coffee from that coffee shop, or can they really?. I don't really find delight in seeing people crowding over the coffee shop flaunting their childish acts. A venti for 5 hours? NICE! What are you some kind of cheapo who tries hard to impress people by the mere fact you can AFFORD a 170 pesos coffee and stay for 5 bloody hours?!?..This is when I realized it time to change the coffee shop I get my doze of caffeine. That's when I started to have a cup of coffee at The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..Their Cafe latte is waaayyy better than that of Starbucks..And the company their isn't that hypocrite than Starbucks has. Yes there may be some conio who drink coffee there but at least they're not pretending to be anything but themselves. Businessmen and businesswomen do their transactions there with a feeling of comfort and ease. Somehow it has a twist of being exclusive.

A few weeks after my last visit to my favorite coffee shop, I got a craving of having coffee, but due to the misplaced coffee dripper , I resorted to TEA. At first it wasn't really pleasant drinking something that's 99% water and tastes like leaves(well it i really leaves). But one time I think I boiled the water just right and poured it into my cup with a tea bag of black tea waiting to be brewed I was surprised when I took a sip, it was...AMAZING..I can taste the flavor that's distinct from what I tasted before. After that day I experimented on what other things could I add on my tea to make it more flavorful . I tried to put honey(yes honey not sugar,its healthier and more delightful) on my tea and YES! it was so wonderful. As of today I tried to put some spices that can be found on our kitchen, well some of the spices don't really fit well..like the Italian spice.It tasted awful. Tomorrow I'll try something more different(yes I am a weird person trying stuff that don't really fit..hehhe) . I drink black/green tea 2 - 4 times a day. It's health benefits really show, my urine is clear and I eject waste more normal than I was with coffee...hehehhe...That's it for now till next time!

and oh I really want to try Earl Grey tea!:P won't you be so kind and treat me a cup?:P

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Club week blues

The Club week started with a mass and induction of all club officers. It sounds pretty normal. But this club week wasn't we have to rush the finishing touches for the offering at the mass, Seth has to make a prayer of the faithful for our org in a few minutes during the mass and well all went well...Except for the Memo that sir John posted on the CSC office. It kind of made me disappointed. And the booth is a disaster!... I really don't know how to handle my people..or maybe its me...my procrastination...Seriously last week I was tempted to step down from my post and just watch if things would go right without me..but i realize it would be an emotional trauma for me..and the org reached that far we wouldn't want to put it to waste don't we?...Tuesday morning, Raymark and me were "cleansed" with an early morning sermon form maam Vista about planning ahead and all other things...one of the gruesome scene is the CSC president is the SA of the pastoral office!!so while we were "cleansed" to the bones Madame president was present!wew!Talk about Shame....The Juan Voice went well we got 300 pesos plus for the funds thanks to miss Marjorie (shes that noisy girl at the SAC office..hehhe peace) ..next is the boat race which we well FAILED..hhaha but well it was a rush anyway and it wasn't our forte....This morning well we had to scavenge some participants for the Brain Waves...and well Thank God Raymark pulled it off nicely...and the budget got released(ThANK GOD)...Lunch time I was eating at my usual place I was enjoying my lunch and suddenly....a critter popped out of my meal.wew!thats a treat the meal was tokwa with the sauce..and only noticed the critter when I was half way my meal...okk thats really gross...the concessioner compensated with another viand well i agreed because I wasn't in the mood to add more tension..not the AVR issue came up...Maam Amy and emer had a little heated conversation and thankfully Emer did appologize to her..and the adventure continues Emer and me went to Savio Chruch to confirm form father Monch then to Mr. teddy then to maam elen then to Maam Amy again...then it was done!..Now the T-shit!the freaking tshit can't be rushed on friday in time for the fashion hour..wew!!thats all for now....:P

Monday, July 5, 2010

meet the parents

I woke up at 6am in the morning Sunday July 5, 2010.I was anxious and filled with other mixed emotions..i am 4 hours away from mettng

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Beginning from the End

After the NO bus hit me right in the face I came back from my Illusions to the real world.From all that's happened I've realize a lot of things that are already there, I didn't notice because I was busy rushing things and didn't take a step backward to look at it if it was still going well.To make it short I made a huge mess of my life these pass few months. I had to learn things the hard way. Rest assured I LEARNED i didn't just EXPERIENCED it. I crumbled to the abyss of naught. I was hurt, bruised and unstable. Not a single glimmer of light shed upon me in these dark moments. I always say that Don't cry over spilled milk, but deep inside I cry over it. It is because it was once something that made me smile more than anything. It is true that time heals, with the condition you are willing to be healed and not hold it in vain..From the past downfalls I have learned to be resilient...and starting over again...:P...