It been 6 months since I saw who I really am and what I really represent. I don´t know if that was just the illusion of me or it is the ¨real¨ Dennis...Right now I am utterly worthless my brother-in-law is pissed with me, My mother doesn´t trust me anymore. I am what she and papa call..¨Matalinong - BOBO¨..or ¨wala common-Sense.¨...I am still in a state of apathy ...for the reason that I hope I may not feel the pain...the pain of being misunderstood, the pain of being betrayed by the one you love, the feeling of drenched in loneliness...I may be disturbed as what my mother observed. I don´t know what disturbs me if its true that I´m Disturbed...I try to keep myself busy like going to the gym more often and try to make something out of myself...I lack the motivation in my studies..I know that I have everything laid before me. Everything I need to achieve an honor in academics, except the motivation..I really want to study at home but I don´t think that itś possible with all the noise and the ambiance of the house doesn´t help either..One example is my parents...I really noticed that mother is really cold at my father...My father has a broken Pride..Maybe it´s because my mother provided for us for a couple of years without the help of my father. My father on the other hand has a broken Pride...I can feel that he is doing his best in reclaiming his pride as a Father, a husband and the bread-winner of the family.....Maybe thats why at school I smile a lot and confident about myself..I actually feel I´m someone who can do things right..Insults rains at me at home...well most of them are my fault I admit that...I know they´re just trying to make me a better person...But I don´t think comparing me to what they´ve been through in the past and pressuring me to their expectations. Why can´t I have expectations for myself?Is my tech-frenzy a hindrance ?Is it the reason I´m not doing things I´m suppose to do?Should I do away with this tech-frenzy?...but that will only make me an ignorant in my own field...could anyone save me from this predicament I am in?I call myself a knight but I am a disgrace to my own court...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Smile
Tonight I saw your smile
The world has stopped awhile
Beautiful as the nile
You are worth every mile
Looking at you unaware
Utter a word I'd not dare
You're beautiful and rare
Forgive me if I stare
The music from your voice
The excellence of poise
Eliminates the noise
God's quality of choice
Laid my intentions bold
A warning I was told
But to the end I'll hold
Even It'll be cold
Permitted me to woo
My heart will wait for you
Do the best I can do
I want to be your beau
To give you happiness
Not empty promises
Truly you're my princess
A princess of no less
Enza
Enza
I'm captured by your smile
was amazed by your style
I wondered for a while
Is it worth Every mile?
I am caught in your spell
only my heart could tell
Of how much I have fell
want to b where you dwell
Will be your faithful knight
Only for you I'll fight
Come with me in this flight
Together in this light
love is what I present
It's genuine without dent
Awaiting your consent
I feel that you're God sent
lend me a little time
please listen to my rhyme
To me you are so prime
beautiful & sublime
Music in the Past
Music InThe Past
lingering in the past
I thought it was the last
It was something so fast
all that is left is gust
my heart still wants her
makes me remember
it makes me wonder
If to go further
my sea disagrees
to what my heart sees
to each of the degrees
It stings like the bees
I miss the fire
i'ts what I desire
I will never tire
even if I mire
filled with memories
sweet pleasant stories
eases my worries
granted by faries
I leave everything
Hold unto God's wing
with eternal ring
for ever I sing
>DiOnYsUs<
Distance
Distance
Even we're miles apart
you're always in my heart
to you I will not part
loved you from the start
love, the eternal light
with you even not on sight
together in our flight
With you in every fight
through the light we will meet
Sing and dance with the beat
Flow with the rising heat
It's God's eternal treat
To me you are the truth
You have given me soothe
To you I will never loot
I tire not in this suit